My friends know that this transition back into full time engineering at General Motors after 20 years of "retirement" have been difficult. I have felt like I've lost my identity and purpose. I have been focusing on all that has been taken away from me - the ministry I thought was to do, the people I wanted to reach, the sacrifices I chose to make - instead of focusing on what God was doing in my life. I lost track of the fact that this life I live isn't about ME, it's all about Jesus!
I wish I could share all that God is doing...I can't, but here are a few glimpses:
1) The opportunity to allow Craig to serve me in an area that I have served him pretty exclusively for the last 20 years. We've come full circle, back to sharing in household cooking, cleaning, laundry, shopping etc., as I do my part in bringing home the "bacon". I never dreamed it would be so hard to give up! :)
2) Working together throughout the week, enjoying talking "shop" around the dinner table and understanding each other's successes and struggles...
3) Receiving encouraging IMs throughout the day. ;-) He lifts me up when I am down and prods me on when I feel like giving up. It feels like when we were first dating. (We met at GM 27 years ago!) I keep looking for "perennial" flowers in a beaker on my desk. ;-) Or a helium balloon with a smiley tied to my chair. Unfortunately, my desk is in Pontiac and his is in Warren. :-(
4) Grateful to see his reduced stress over financial matters.
5) The AMAZING work God did in placing a ministry burden on Craig and me independently, then drawing us together in the offering ...Don't know if, when, or how the offering will be used, but I have been blessed beyond words with the fact that we are in unity and stepped out in faith together in obedience with open hands - my faith has grown to have experienced God in this way!
There is so much more...
I want to live with open hands and a grateful heart! :)
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